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  1. Entry #223 May 30, 2012 7:07 pm


    Dear SoulEater,

    The above pictures are a few of my moments with the PUMP players of Naga City, specifically SM.. I went there to try the so called new machine, PUMP IT UP Fiesta EX.. And I really found it fun though not with the pad coz its sensitivity is really crappy.. but the songs are great, had fun with Hot Issue and Shock, both korean songs.. I tried finding the song Ive been looking for from NX absolute, the Tell me by Wondergirls.. but I failed, I was not able to locate its origin coz of the diverse list of songs from even the very 1st pump machine.. Anyway, thats just a few gists from my Naga visit today..

    I started my day around 8, I decided to go home for 3 reasons, my brother is coming home, my finalizing of cosplans for Sebastian Michaelis, and to visit and meet up with my Queen..

    I finished preparing myself around 10 and departed to Gai to maybe fetch the sharingan.. sad news is it hasnt arrived yet so I gotta fetch it by Monday.. I immediately went to Daraga and rode the van to Naga.. I arrived there at around 12:30 pm.. I immediately informed my Queen about my arrival and loaded her so she can contact me.. But things didnt go my way.. She said she was with his Loved guy.. Honestly I was jealous back there.. but I cant do anything, I was also expecting that.. My forecasting skills and instincts never failed me, like what happened this afternoon, they were together.. I got really disappointed, but I made sure my Queen didnt notice it.. So I just went on with my other plans for Naga..

    So there, I went to SM, bought somethings, roamed the whole mall.. I noticed that lots of girls and fuckin gays kept on staring at me.. I think it was becoz of my get up which I rarely used, and I only use it when I go home.. I started to become a lil conscious, is this the 1st time they saw a handsome guy on an Imba get up there at Naga.. really got myself famous back there.. with lots of people and all.. I went to WoF, and observed some machines, then finally, I found the PIU Fiesta EX.. There, I saw a group of guys playing the machine like they feel they are pros.. I was just observing them.. then they noticed me.. They were thinking I wanted to learn how to play the machine,like I was a newbie.. They didnt know the monster inside me wanted to show em what it means to be an NX god.. I also noticed the calibration sensitivity of the pads, they suck and it really got to my attention.. Then after they played, this guy showed playing Freestyle of Dont Bother Me, the song which I built my Imba tricks on.. Then after they played, I asked humbly if they can teach me how to play.. They misunderstood what I meant and thought that I wanted to learn as a newbie.. I was observing them closely how they manipulate the machine.. and then they suddenly noticed I was fast pacing up the machine.. They started to have this suspicion that I was no newbie at all.. Specially the lady who was sitting near me who played before me.. I played the Hot Issue at x3 speed and difficulty lvl 11.. And they confirmed their suspicion that I was no ordinary player.. after the said song, I showed em who I really am, that I am the Renowned Magneto of Legazpi.. I showed em my Freestyle.. I was really enjoying their reaction after seeing me play the machine like a candy.. I was really smiling specially in the part where I showed my Imba Double reverse somersault and break dances.. They immediately asked me where the hell did I come from.. I told em I play at Camarines Norte with NX, Legazpi with NX2 and Manila with NX absolute.. Then played the Crazy Lvl 14 of Shock by Beast, which confirmed my Genuinity as a NX God.. Then after I said my Thanks to them, I took a souvenir of em and ergo Mission 1 complete..

    The sad news on the other hand, my Queen never came.. I tried buying time, hoping shed come and tell me she missed me.. I waited, I hoped, but I was downed,she never came, she never showed up, she never contacted me.. So with a sad face, I went home.. I was supposed to give her the Kitkat Black Chocolate I bought for her, I was supposed to tell her something.. something very important.. but I guess Ill be keeping that feelings within me for life.. I really miss her.. I longed for her warm and soft hands.. But what came to my mind was she is already owned, that those hands are already held by somebody else..No missing the fact, my Queen has a boyfriend.. I declared that to myself.. so I went to the terminal only to find myself frustrated.. The Daet-Naga Terminal was transferred to LCC.. I mean, who the fuck have thought of such a crazy idea to transfer one of the most important access points in Naga.. The one who have thought of thatmaybe has low IQ or something.. Tssss.. So I rode a tricycle, paid 25 php and had myself rode the Van at LCC terminal.. I was positioned with a girl in front, who always looked at me.. She thinks I dont notice but my Peripheral vision is so strong I can see her from 180 degrees.. I think I shouldnt have used that get up, girls kept on noticing and looking at me.. even when I arrived at Norte.. tsssss.. Ayoko maging gwapo, I never were handsome in the 1st place..

    So I played again NX at Daet, Houseware mall, then Brother came.. we played and fetched Joyce at the shop… To my surprise, my Brother had already bought the materials for making the Gilgamesh Armor set, Fun foams and all.. even the design pattern, the  armor frame and the spray paint is already ready.. I told my Bro and Sis that they really are taking my Offer seriously.. I never imagined our family being involved in cosplay industry.. ut I guess its a good turn of events, a relaxing hobby, and a good way to earn money.. I didnt expect to earn my Mom and Dad’s support on this.. Being an elite family here in Vinzons is really something I guess..

    So there, after buying Chooks to go and Coffee float from Jolibee, we went home happy, the Baclili family reunited once again..

    Im currently planning the suit with me Mom and Sis, asking the details on cloth to be used, the dimensions of the costume and all, m brother being busy making me his model of the Gilgamesh armor(which his frame is being made) while I do this entry.. really busy after arriving.. ehe.. Gotta go, need to finish this cosplans and my brother is really desperate on making me his model of Gilgamesh..(Focusing on the Upper torso and pauldrons)

    Byeeee!

    Love lots,

    Jim..

    P.S.

    Jinn is sensing that the cosplay shoot will be a success.. It will definitely change our perception of Anime and Cosplaying.. I offer this as a great gift to my Queen.. maybe le Finale..

  2. Entry #223 May 30, 2012 7:07 pm Dear SoulEater, “She said may the Best man win.. I dont see myself as the best man, and I am not in any competition with anyone.. Im just doing what I promised and my job.. In short, the Guy wins by DEFAULT…” This is what I realized yesterday as I lay before bed.. I realized I cant beat that guy.. They say he’s hot and rich.. I really dont care that much, and Im pretty sure my Queen would choose him over me.. It is becoz I presume that by access and circumstances, the guy is at an advantage.. Im not rich, Im not handsome, Im just another regular guy with a great wit and intelligence, gifted with skills on surviving life.. Anyway, it wouldnt matter, a job is a job and a promise is a promise, we wouldnt want our family disgraced by not doing what we said we would.. ^^, So yesterday, what only happened was that we had our review and at the afternoon I was checking on my Queen, how she fares there and her current state.. Also, I was able to finally fix the Adobe Photoshop CS5 and Adobe Indesign CS6 of Kuya Ton.. and we talked about the concept and ideas which are gonna be used for our Cosplay Shoot.. Im seeking help to find places where to rent a wig or buy for a cheap price.. The other things are easy to do, but the Wig is the most crucial part of our Cosplan coz its hard to find the same hair.. Anyway, most are already preset and ready, only waiting for the costume and Sharingan, which is obviously already there at LBC waiting for pick up.. I was supposed to have a celebrity meet up tomorrow with Cristine Reyes, but there were a sudden change of plans.. My brother is coming home by tom so I want to be there so we can have a family bonding again even without Dad but I wish hed be there too.. My brother asked me if I wanted an Armor.. I was already having an idea that he knows we are now into cosplaying.. so I showed him a challenging pic.. I showed him Gilgamesh, and he said we can do it, he needs the pic of front, back and side.. He might use an aluminum for light wieght or if the source would be scarce, wed shift to an alternative called Fun foam.. He also offered me if I wanted to cosplay Edward elric.. he can do the Metal arm as he described on how to make it on handicrafts and metal.. zzzz.. So Ill be going home tomorrow to Camarines Norte.. But I plan on visiting my Queen first tomorrow.. I told her Ill be at Naga all day until 7 pm.. But it seems she doesnt care, and she doesnt want me there.. She refused my call at lunch today and never said any comments regarding my arrival tom.. oh well.. I was planning to fetch her from ADNU and bring her to anywhere she wants to go if she happens to be not busy.. but then again oh well.. I was gonna ask for her help about the wig.. TT_TT.. Nwei, looking forward to my 3 day vacation at Norte, I need some rest too you know, having sharpened my mind like that straight for 2 months is something very stressful and tiring mind You.. Im not ignoring my responsibilities to rpepare for the board, but sometimes I need that mind ease to make myself flexible.. Gotta go Soul.. Ill be playing.. and I wonder what my queen is up to right now.. I think he’s with his guy.. hmmmm.. Oh well.. Love lots, Jim.. P.S. Jinn is curious if I am really on to this cosplay thing.. I said yeah, so he gave a suggestion with my hairstyle and suggested kakashi.. I said why not, I do have the sharingan, but the Jounin suit is currently at Comic alley.. I want the Vongola Gloves before anything else..

    Entry #223 May 30, 2012 7:07 pm


    Dear SoulEater,

    “She said may the Best man win.. I dont see myself as the best man, and I am not in any competition with anyone.. Im just doing what I promised and my job.. In short, the Guy wins by DEFAULT…”

    This is what I realized yesterday as I lay before bed.. I realized I cant beat that guy.. They say he’s hot and rich.. I really dont care that much, and Im pretty sure my Queen would choose him over me.. It is becoz I presume that by access and circumstances, the guy is at an advantage.. Im not rich, Im not handsome, Im just another regular guy with a great wit and intelligence, gifted with skills on surviving life.. Anyway, it wouldnt matter, a job is a job and a promise is a promise, we wouldnt want our family disgraced by not doing what we said we would.. ^^,

    So yesterday, what only happened was that we had our review and at the afternoon I was checking on my Queen, how she fares there and her current state.. Also, I was able to finally fix the Adobe Photoshop CS5 and Adobe Indesign CS6 of Kuya Ton.. and we talked about the concept and ideas which are gonna be used for our Cosplay Shoot.. Im seeking help to find places where to rent a wig or buy for a cheap price.. The other things are easy to do, but the Wig is the most crucial part of our Cosplan coz its hard to find the same hair.. Anyway, most are already preset and ready, only waiting for the costume and Sharingan, which is obviously already there at LBC waiting for pick up..

    I was supposed to have a celebrity meet up tomorrow with Cristine Reyes, but there were a sudden change of plans.. My brother is coming home by tom so I want to be there so we can have a family bonding again even without Dad but I wish hed be there too.. My brother asked me if I wanted an Armor.. I was already having an idea that he knows we are now into cosplaying.. so I showed him a challenging pic.. I showed him Gilgamesh, and he said we can do it, he needs the pic of front, back and side.. He might use an aluminum for light wieght or if the source would be scarce, wed shift to an alternative called Fun foam.. He also offered me if I wanted to cosplay Edward elric.. he can do the Metal arm as he described on how to make it on handicrafts and metal.. zzzz..

    So Ill be going home tomorrow to Camarines Norte.. But I plan on visiting my Queen first tomorrow.. I told her Ill be at Naga all day until 7 pm.. But it seems she doesnt care, and she doesnt want me there.. She refused my call at lunch today and never said any comments regarding my arrival tom.. oh well.. I was planning to fetch her from ADNU and bring her to anywhere she wants to go if she happens to be not busy.. but then again oh well.. I was gonna ask for her help about the wig.. TT_TT..

    Nwei, looking forward to my 3 day vacation at Norte, I need some rest too you know, having sharpened my mind like that straight for 2 months is something very stressful and tiring mind You.. Im not ignoring my responsibilities to rpepare for the board, but sometimes I need that mind ease to make myself flexible..

    Gotta go Soul.. Ill be playing.. and I wonder what my queen is up to right now.. I think he’s with his guy.. hmmmm.. Oh well..

    Love lots,

    Jim..

    P.S.

    Jinn is curious if I am really on to this cosplay thing.. I said yeah, so he gave a suggestion with my hairstyle and suggested kakashi.. I said why not, I do have the sharingan, but the Jounin suit is currently at Comic alley.. I want the Vongola Gloves before anything else..

  3. Entry #222 May 28, 2012 9:20 pm Dear SoulEater, “All my plans didnt work.. All failed.. But the day turned out great.. Greater than I even Imagined it.. ^^, Totally in Heaven due to overwhelming happiness!” This was what I said in my Facebook account.. Ill be doing this entry in a semi drunk state, and Im pretty Ill be able to express my feelings this way.. Today is May 28.. I already mentioned from my previous post about what is to transpire for today.. Last night, for an unexpected reason, she my Queen saw my entry.. and I was a bit uneasy by that time.. She has read everything there, and I was afraid of her reaction to it.. and all I can do was keep my eyes closed and wish shed never hate me for what I feel.. so at around 1 am, after talking with me Dad, I slept and woke up around 6 am the same day.. She told me shed be at Gai today, but I dont want to expect,so I only readied my semi form get up.. I was thinking I dont want to end up seeking Jinn again coz I got disappointed.. So I only used my fave black polo.. My get up was for making the women freak out I guess, the aura was a mysterious handsome black guy.. So there, never failed to amaze people on my fashion taste..(I guess..) so I listened to the lecture which honestly for me was boring and tiresome becoz Ive mastered that concept eversince Einstein invented his theories.. So lemon squeezy I just stare at balnk space thinking if my queen will really arrive.. I told myself not to expect, but it was obvious I was dyingly expecting for her to come.. so came aftie, I texted her and told me she will go out and watch movie wit her friends.. I was starting to get anxious about the time, coz it was way getting past 1, then 2, then 3 pm.. at around 3:22, I went down, but never saw her.. then stayed there for a bit.. I then saw an Image of her from a distance, and at exactly the same time I recieved her text tat she was at NX.. and there, all my anguish in the 3 attempts of seeing her were relieved.. I finally saw my queen in person again.. She was wearing a rather cute outfit, with her snake bites on.. She totally rocked that time with her get up.. we didnt talk yet.. she was with her friends that time and I cant go barging in telling her I missed her.. You know, I totally consider manners.. plus those ignorant kids at NX were pissing me off.. so I told my queen Ill be back to get my things upstairs at 4th floor.. There, even if Mam Bulanadi wasnt even finished with her lecture, I went down with my things coz I had to prepare seeing my queen.. but at that time I didnt see here on the vicinity.. I was losing ope that time.. that she might ave gone home.. So I just bought a token and C2 then loitered near NX.. Then I again saw her, but this time, with only his guy friend.. well, I didnt know how to approach em, so I just played NX.. then while I was palying, she came to my back and slapped my tummy..(gosh, nice hello there..) But it was Ok, so after finishing my rounds, they approached me and there, me and my Queen are together along with his mad but cool friend..(we both have the same trips in life..) So what we did was we roamed the whole of Metro Gaisano and Pacific Mall..literally.. I was counting how many times we were roaming per floor and Im pretty sure it was 3 times on 2nd floor, 2 times on 3rd floor and 1 time at 1st floor.. and yeah, we were only walking without rest..(how about me who played NX at its full mode, I totally am exhibiting Immortality back then..) Now here is the beautiful part on our walks.. While we were walking, she kept on holding my Arm.. which was a total heart stopper for me.. she kept on teasing me, hitting my abs, pointing at my cheeks, and Jimboy Baboy.. and we talked and loitered, made Gaisano our garden.. Back there, I was smiling like I got raped by the top 100 sexiest women of FHM..(what the?!) But that’s how happy I am.. really.. Then we finally had a stop near the cinema at 3rd floor.. there, me and my queen sat.. Mr Beautiful mind had his crazy but fun mind going so he left us to talk.. So I started talking with my Queen, told her that this is the Skype in person that Ive been waiting for.. We talked about our lives.. then she told me about the entry here, that she always read my blog, that she cared.. I was touched there.. I cant express the happiness I was feeling there, and out of the blue I remembered my promise to here that when we see each other, I will kneel in person.. I did, and she was freaking out.. but I was damn serious about my promise so there.. She also told me that she knew of the feelings I kept from her.. I cannot deny that fact anymore.. She knows already.. but what relieved me of my burden that moment, was she was still holding my arm.. I felt how warm her hands were.. I saw how beautiful her arms were.. I felt she wanted to hold my arm longer.. I wanted that moment to pause.. to stop.. I didnt want time to tick and continue to move.. I wanted that moment preserved thru time.. That moment where our eyes meet, like we were talking telepathically.. how we poked each other with our fingers, how we were side by side talking stories and thoughts.. I didnt want that time to pass.. Finally, we were Skyping in person, she smiled, I smiled, and we both found happiness on both’s company.. Yeah, all my pre-set plans failed, I was supposed to bring her to Embarc for a moment, to tell her something important that I always have wanted to tell her, and to hug her of course, been longing for that.. But none of those happened.. Instead, the day turned out to be more Great than what I ever imagined.. I know  my smile and happiness have reached the mere heavens itself.. Im sorry, I was not able to tell my Queen I love her in person.. But truly, as her Butler and Paramore, I wanted to say “I love you” to her.. Then she decided to go home.. On our way to 1st floor, an unexpected event happened.. She held my hand.. There, I totally felt ow warm her hands are.. how soft and soothing her hands are.. and for that moment when she started holding my hand, I told myself, that Ill do my best to be her Greatest Butler, even tough Im her one and only butler according to her.. Ill do my best to serve her.. Then she left me, and all I did was stare at her while she vanished amongst the crowd.. Back then, I was happy enough it turned all my sadness for the last few days upside down.. everything changed.. This day wasnt a waste, it was more special than anyone could have imagined.. It was our first month after we met, and it turned out to be great.. Then I went home.. on the way, she texted me with another heart warming message.. I cant tell it here but I was smiling all the time from the jeep to Fortmax to my Friend’s Bday bash(happy bday Jaz, thanks for le Champagne..) Then I went home here at my Bhauz, to do this entry.. Id like to call this one “Me and my Queen Enma Ai wearing snake bites” event.. She hasnt PMed me yet, but oh well.. Shes leaving tomorrow.. and Ill miss her that’s for sure… Im gonna miss my Queen.. but with what happened today, I am more determined to reach a new height for my academic excellence, and she’s the inspiration behind it.. Gotta go! Love lots, Jim.. P.S. Tomorrow, Hello Sharingan! Will be preparing for the cosplay shoot.. Its gonna be me first time, and my costume is under construction still near completion.. The shoot will start once my sis arrives with the suit.. I am Sebastian Michaelis, the Black Butler..

    Entry #222 May 28, 2012 9:20 pm


    Dear SoulEater,

    “All my plans didnt work.. All failed.. But the day turned out great.. Greater than I even Imagined it.. ^^, Totally in Heaven due to overwhelming happiness!”

    This was what I said in my Facebook account.. Ill be doing this entry in a semi drunk state, and Im pretty Ill be able to express my feelings this way..

    Today is May 28.. I already mentioned from my previous post about what is to transpire for today.. Last night, for an unexpected reason, she my Queen saw my entry.. and I was a bit uneasy by that time.. She has read everything there, and I was afraid of her reaction to it.. and all I can do was keep my eyes closed and wish shed never hate me for what I feel..

    so at around 1 am, after talking with me Dad, I slept and woke up around 6 am the same day.. She told me shed be at Gai today, but I dont want to expect,so I only readied my semi form get up.. I was thinking I dont want to end up seeking Jinn again coz I got disappointed.. So I only used my fave black polo.. My get up was for making the women freak out I guess, the aura was a mysterious handsome black guy.. So there, never failed to amaze people on my fashion taste..(I guess..)

    so I listened to the lecture which honestly for me was boring and tiresome becoz Ive mastered that concept eversince Einstein invented his theories.. So lemon squeezy I just stare at balnk space thinking if my queen will really arrive.. I told myself not to expect, but it was obvious I was dyingly expecting for her to come..

    so came aftie, I texted her and told me she will go out and watch movie wit her friends.. I was starting to get anxious about the time, coz it was way getting past 1, then 2, then 3 pm.. at around 3:22, I went down, but never saw her.. then stayed there for a bit.. I then saw an Image of her from a distance, and at exactly the same time I recieved her text tat she was at NX.. and there, all my anguish in the 3 attempts of seeing her were relieved.. I finally saw my queen in person again.. She was wearing a rather cute outfit, with her snake bites on.. She totally rocked that time with her get up.. we didnt talk yet.. she was with her friends that time and I cant go barging in telling her I missed her.. You know, I totally consider manners.. plus those ignorant kids at NX were pissing me off.. so I told my queen Ill be back to get my things upstairs at 4th floor..

    There, even if Mam Bulanadi wasnt even finished with her lecture, I went down with my things coz I had to prepare seeing my queen.. but at that time I didnt see here on the vicinity.. I was losing ope that time.. that she might ave gone home.. So I just bought a token and C2 then loitered near NX.. Then I again saw her, but this time, with only his guy friend.. well, I didnt know how to approach em, so I just played NX.. then while I was palying, she came to my back and slapped my tummy..(gosh, nice hello there..) But it was Ok, so after finishing my rounds, they approached me and there, me and my Queen are together along with his mad but cool friend..(we both have the same trips in life..)

    So what we did was we roamed the whole of Metro Gaisano and Pacific Mall..literally.. I was counting how many times we were roaming per floor and Im pretty sure it was 3 times on 2nd floor, 2 times on 3rd floor and 1 time at 1st floor.. and yeah, we were only walking without rest..(how about me who played NX at its full mode, I totally am exhibiting Immortality back then..)

    Now here is the beautiful part on our walks.. While we were walking, she kept on holding my Arm.. which was a total heart stopper for me.. she kept on teasing me, hitting my abs, pointing at my cheeks, and Jimboy Baboy.. and we talked and loitered, made Gaisano our garden.. Back there, I was smiling like I got raped by the top 100 sexiest women of FHM..(what the?!) But that’s how happy I am.. really..

    Then we finally had a stop near the cinema at 3rd floor.. there, me and my queen sat.. Mr Beautiful mind had his crazy but fun mind going so he left us to talk..

    So I started talking with my Queen, told her that this is the Skype in person that Ive been waiting for.. We talked about our lives.. then she told me about the entry here, that she always read my blog, that she cared.. I was touched there.. I cant express the happiness I was feeling there, and out of the blue I remembered my promise to here that when we see each other, I will kneel in person.. I did, and she was freaking out.. but I was damn serious about my promise so there.. She also told me that she knew of the feelings I kept from her.. I cannot deny that fact anymore.. She knows already.. but what relieved me of my burden that moment, was she was still holding my arm.. I felt how warm her hands were.. I saw how beautiful her arms were.. I felt she wanted to hold my arm longer..

    I wanted that moment to pause.. to stop.. I didnt want time to tick and continue to move.. I wanted that moment preserved thru time.. That moment where our eyes meet, like we were talking telepathically.. how we poked each other with our fingers, how we were side by side talking stories and thoughts.. I didnt want that time to pass.. Finally, we were Skyping in person, she smiled, I smiled, and we both found happiness on both’s company.. Yeah, all my pre-set plans failed, I was supposed to bring her to Embarc for a moment, to tell her something important that I always have wanted to tell her, and to hug her of course, been longing for that.. But none of those happened.. Instead, the day turned out to be more Great than what I ever imagined.. I know  my smile and happiness have reached the mere heavens itself..

    Im sorry, I was not able to tell my Queen I love her in person..

    But truly, as her Butler and Paramore, I wanted to say “I love you” to her..

    Then she decided to go home.. On our way to 1st floor, an unexpected event happened..

    She held my hand.. There, I totally felt ow warm her hands are.. how soft and soothing her hands are.. and for that moment when she started holding my hand, I told myself, that Ill do my best to be her Greatest Butler, even tough Im her one and only butler according to her.. Ill do my best to serve her..

    Then she left me, and all I did was stare at her while she vanished amongst the crowd..

    Back then, I was happy enough it turned all my sadness for the last few days upside down.. everything changed.. This day wasnt a waste, it was more special than anyone could have imagined.. It was our first month after we met, and it turned out to be great..

    Then I went home.. on the way, she texted me with another heart warming message.. I cant tell it here but I was smiling all the time from the jeep to Fortmax to my Friend’s Bday bash(happy bday Jaz, thanks for le Champagne..)

    Then I went home here at my Bhauz, to do this entry.. Id like to call this one “Me and my Queen Enma Ai wearing snake bites” event..

    She hasnt PMed me yet, but oh well.. Shes leaving tomorrow.. and Ill miss her that’s for sure… Im gonna miss my Queen.. but with what happened today, I am more determined to reach a new height for my academic excellence, and she’s the inspiration behind it.. Gotta go!

    Love lots,

    Jim..

    P.S.

    Tomorrow, Hello Sharingan! Will be preparing for the cosplay shoot.. Its gonna be me first time, and my costume is under construction still near completion.. The shoot will start once my sis arrives with the suit.. I am Sebastian Michaelis, the Black Butler..

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  4. Entry #221 May 27, 2012 10:23 pm Dear SoulEater, The above picture is my Sis, Joyce Baclili, a fashion designer by blood and a genuine beauty enthusiast.. Currently on her Cleopatra role during our Santacruzan at Camarines Norte.. The costume was a derivative concept from Alodia Gosengfiao’s Phoenix cosplay, inspired by the color context as explained by her when we met here at Gai last Friday.. Anyway, why am I posting an entry today, coz tomorrow is a significant day for me.. Its May 28.. So what is May 28 to me? Im a man of memories, I like treasuring and remembering them.. May 28 is directly related to last months April 28 Anigaiden 2, where Miss Alodia came to Legazpi to judge the competition, you can see the full course of that day in a previous post.. But that’s not the reason why I remember this day, its becoz what was more important to me back then, on that day, was I met someone.. A lady in Ahri’s identity.. A lil lost bird that I happen to meet along the way.. Yeah, it was April 28 when I met her.. Its been a month already.. and I still cant believe that Id be meeting someone like her.. Why do I have the guts to talk about her in this special entry? coz I know she wont be reading this, Im pretty sure she’s not interested in my life, which kinda makes me sad.. Its ok though, I understand that she is still young at heart and wouldnt understand love that much in this owrld yet.. 16 to a 21 would be rare, but whenever we talk, its just like 18 to 19.. Well Soul, I want to talk about my feelings for her.. I want to relieve myself from carrying this burden for so long.. Yes, I fell for my Queen.. I have been serving her for almost 23 days online.. Been his Butler and did the things I never imagined,just to see her smile.. The things I never thought Id do for a girl, which I havent done to anyone yet.. Maybe becoz she’s different, rare.. Her unique personality is causing me to be magnetized to her, never her beauty and body.. I always wanted to find someone to love, a cosplayer to be exact, someone who  I can share my wildest imaginations, someone who can understand the way I think.. All of my EXs knew my love for Anime, but none from them understood my feelings for it.. And when I met my queen, all my hopes went up.. I thought I had found someone who can finally see the world the way I see it too, that its a dreamland, a beautiful fantasy.. but.. Meeting her I think, was too late.. I met her far too late.. Just when I finally found her, the perfect lady for me, she’s already been taken by heart.. and the bad news about it is that the one who caught heris a no good guy who always treat her dirt.. If only I was not 1st batch during our Affiliation last 3rd year college, I could have met her during Anigaiden 1 during Magayon Fest.. Damn it Soul, why did you let me cross paths with her specially in this time that she’s taken already? Just when I finally found her.. It really makes me sad that I could have given her all the things she needed from that guy, Love, Time, Family, Dreams, Happiness.. Soul, why did you let her fall to the wrong hands? Why not in my care? You know how Ive been wanting and needing to take care of someone like her? I was so downed sseing her sad becoz she’s maltreated when in fact she deserves so much better.. So out of the blue, I became her Butler, I served her, I gave her all the things I can give as of now per circumstances and time, I spent time with her everynight, I planned strategies to make her happy, I gave her what she wanted, a ring, I laughed and smiled with her, I even went to the extent of kneeling and begging just to keep her hugged, things his Loved guy cant even give.. I became loyal to her.. I wanted her to love me.. I wanted that love back.. but she loves somebody else.. so what I did, I tried helping her to change how his Loved guy treats her.. I wanted his Guy to love her.. I know My Queen would get the happiness that she always wanted from the guy,so I tried making bridges for them to work their relationship out.. I even prayed to You to make her Loved guy realize that he is wasting such a beautiful treasure.. I prayed that Guy would Love my Queen fairly, get the love that she deserves.. Soul, Please, I pray that they be happy with each other.. If ever they dont work out and my Queen realizes that she doesnt deserve an Asshole like him, pls give way for me and her to be happy.. Give me the chance change her perception that not all men would treat her like shit, that there is still me waiting for her.. I really love my queen.. and only in this Diary I can express my full feelings.. And I know I can express my feelings her without worrying anyone, and without her knowing this entry even existed.. I didnt imagine Id sacrifice for a woman who cant love me.. and for her, and only her, that I am constructing Sebastian Michaelis Cosplay suit.. Its almost finished.. I aint using it for joining a competition, Ill use it to see myself as a full pledge Butler who fell inlove with his Queen.. I cant believe Id feel this feeling my whole life.. Love.. ahahahah.. Im happy.. a Painful happiness.. So, In honor of my Queen and me meeting, Ill celebrate tomorrow.. Ill eat lasagna and be happy.. Byeeee.. Love lots, Jim.. P.S. I wish ako na lang mahal nya.. sana ako na lang..

    Entry #221 May 27, 2012 10:23 pm



    Dear SoulEater,

    The above picture is my Sis, Joyce Baclili, a fashion designer by blood and a genuine beauty enthusiast.. Currently on her Cleopatra role during our Santacruzan at Camarines Norte.. The costume was a derivative concept from Alodia Gosengfiao’s Phoenix cosplay, inspired by the color context as explained by her when we met here at Gai last Friday..

    Anyway, why am I posting an entry today, coz tomorrow is a significant day for me.. Its May 28.. So what is May 28 to me? Im a man of memories, I like treasuring and remembering them.. May 28 is directly related to last months April 28 Anigaiden 2, where Miss Alodia came to Legazpi to judge the competition, you can see the full course of that day in a previous post.. But that’s not the reason why I remember this day, its becoz what was more important to me back then, on that day, was I met someone.. A lady in Ahri’s identity.. A lil lost bird that I happen to meet along the way..

    Yeah, it was April 28 when I met her.. Its been a month already.. and I still cant believe that Id be meeting someone like her.. Why do I have the guts to talk about her in this special entry? coz I know she wont be reading this, Im pretty sure she’s not interested in my life, which kinda makes me sad.. Its ok though, I understand that she is still young at heart and wouldnt understand love that much in this owrld yet.. 16 to a 21 would be rare, but whenever we talk, its just like 18 to 19..

    Well Soul, I want to talk about my feelings for her.. I want to relieve myself from carrying this burden for so long.. Yes, I fell for my Queen.. I have been serving her for almost 23 days online.. Been his Butler and did the things I never imagined,just to see her smile.. The things I never thought Id do for a girl, which I havent done to anyone yet.. Maybe becoz she’s different, rare.. Her unique personality is causing me to be magnetized to her, never her beauty and body.. I always wanted to find someone to love, a cosplayer to be exact, someone who  I can share my wildest imaginations, someone who can understand the way I think.. All of my EXs knew my love for Anime, but none from them understood my feelings for it.. And when I met my queen, all my hopes went up.. I thought I had found someone who can finally see the world the way I see it too, that its a dreamland, a beautiful fantasy.. but..

    Meeting her I think, was too late.. I met her far too late.. Just when I finally found her, the perfect lady for me, she’s already been taken by heart.. and the bad news about it is that the one who caught heris a no good guy who always treat her dirt..

    If only I was not 1st batch during our Affiliation last 3rd year college, I could have met her during Anigaiden 1 during Magayon Fest.. Damn it Soul, why did you let me cross paths with her specially in this time that she’s taken already? Just when I finally found her.. It really makes me sad that I could have given her all the things she needed from that guy, Love, Time, Family, Dreams, Happiness.. Soul, why did you let her fall to the wrong hands? Why not in my care? You know how Ive been wanting and needing to take care of someone like her?

    I was so downed sseing her sad becoz she’s maltreated when in fact she deserves so much better.. So out of the blue, I became her Butler, I served her, I gave her all the things I can give as of now per circumstances and time, I spent time with her everynight, I planned strategies to make her happy, I gave her what she wanted, a ring, I laughed and smiled with her, I even went to the extent of kneeling and begging just to keep her hugged, things his Loved guy cant even give.. I became loyal to her..

    I wanted her to love me.. I wanted that love back.. but she loves somebody else..

    so what I did, I tried helping her to change how his Loved guy treats her.. I wanted his Guy to love her.. I know My Queen would get the happiness that she always wanted from the guy,so I tried making bridges for them to work their relationship out.. I even prayed to You to make her Loved guy realize that he is wasting such a beautiful treasure.. I prayed that Guy would Love my Queen fairly, get the love that she deserves.. Soul, Please, I pray that they be happy with each other..

    If ever they dont work out and my Queen realizes that she doesnt deserve an Asshole like him, pls give way for me and her to be happy.. Give me the chance change her perception that not all men would treat her like shit, that there is still me waiting for her..

    I really love my queen.. and only in this Diary I can express my full feelings.. And I know I can express my feelings her without worrying anyone, and without her knowing this entry even existed.. I didnt imagine Id sacrifice for a woman who cant love me..

    and for her, and only her, that I am constructing Sebastian Michaelis Cosplay suit.. Its almost finished.. I aint using it for joining a competition, Ill use it to see myself as a full pledge Butler who fell inlove with his Queen..

    I cant believe Id feel this feeling my whole life.. Love.. ahahahah..

    Im happy.. a Painful happiness..

    So, In honor of my Queen and me meeting, Ill celebrate tomorrow.. Ill eat lasagna and be happy..

    Byeeee..

    Love lots,

    Jim..

    P.S.

    I wish ako na lang mahal nya.. sana ako na lang..

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  5. Entry #220 May 26, 2012 12:00 midnight..

    Dear SoulEater,

    A message that I want someone to see..

    He was so excited to see you today he got himself disappointed again.. It shattered my other self’s ego.. No one is blaming you, yet no one can blame him too.. and that’s the reason he slept and called me, coz there was no one to blame.. He then released it all to a pencil.. He broke it in two, proved that he was hurt and it all suddenly changed his perception of the World..

    and yeah, Im taking over for a while..

    Love lots,

    Jinn..

    P.S.

    He needs rest.. His mind is already at the limit..

  6. Entry #219 May 22, 2012 11:22 pm Dear SoulEater, Its been a day and lots have happened.. Yesterday, after my review, the only significant events that happened was about the May 21 date and the come back of Butler and Queen.. So Id like to skip the morning part of yesterday, its like any other day of course.. Me playing NX,lunch, review and all.. During the afternoon, my Queen, which hates me that time told me what she really felt for me.. Which I appreciated.. but I was having a hard time deciding, coz yet again, I cannot get something which I always wanted.. so after around 5, even if the lecturer was not finished with his lecture, I left and skipped the remaining lessons coz I have to go to Lamia.. its 21 remember.. its an important day.. so at Lamia at Embarcadero, I met with my Ex Donnalyn.. we have been celebrating our 21, which was our Monthsary date, came from September 21, which was our Anniversary… I ordered her our usual order, Mocha coffee but this time, no Kitkat black coz Gai was heavily flooded with people that time.. tsk.. so me and Donnalyn started talking about our pasts, we asked each other how we were faring.. and she told me her problems.. yes she is my ex, but she is still important to me, and I am responsible.. So I shared her burden of sorrows while I was away.. and Im glad she told me everything.. I am pretty sure I alleviated most of her sadness the moment she shared the thoughts which she cant share just to anybody.. I also asked her about Steven, you know, the guy who wanted Lynlyn when we were still us, she said they are faring fine.. I also told her about my lovelife too.. about me and dream girl, about the Anigaiden and Chasing the Cosplay Goddess Event, and about meeting my queen.. we talked about lots of things.. Then we proceeded to the spot at embarc, near the sea, where she said yes to me when I was courting her.. There, I only asked for one thing.. I didnt ask for a kiss.. I just asked for me to hug her from the back.. She didnt resist and let me hug her for more than 15 mins I guess.. then we bid farewell to the sea and sky.. It was a beautiful night.. Now the next event was a more crucial matter.. its about getting back to my Queen whom Ive hurt.. While I was talking to Lynlyn,I realized that I was wrong on trying to test her if she would need me, if shed want me back..I shouldnt have done that.. so I was desperate.. I contacted her when I arrived at Fortmax after I have safely accompanied Lyn home.. I tried contacting her, I looked into her FB using my ninja skills and stalker abilities.. and saw some bothersome posts of her there.. But I ignored and understood it..it was all out of hate for me the reason she said those.. she replied, I loaded her, and loaded my broadband too.. I was desperate that all possible means of contacting her I have exhausted already.. so after a few convincing, she agreed to skype with me one last shot.. I was prepared to do something, something which I dont normally do to common people.. and I do it on my emotional climaxes the reason I had to sue it one final blow.. so when I got home, I immediately set up my Lappy and started calling her.. and when she answered the Video call, I prepared myself and sought help from You Soul for her to forgive me.. I kneeled and begged for her forgiveness.. The last time I even kneeled was when I was begging Donnalyn to choose me instead of Steven.. Yes, that moment was so sad I become down when I remember it, but with that event I became stronger.. and I was so sincere on asking for my queen’s forgiveness the reason I did it again.. I kneeled, begged for her to forgive me.. and maybe You really didnt leave me when I needed You Soul.. She forgave me.. and we resumed our usual routine until 12:31 am of today.. I thought I was a goner there, that it was already too late.. Im glad Donnalyn made me realize I was wrong and that I should ask for her forgiveness.. so came today, woke up 6, went to RUN for some lecture, ended at 5, went to Shea’s house for her Dad’s Bday and ate lots of spagetti and Ice cream.. I also skyped with my Queen and tried using the iPad.. and ergo, all happy.. Thanks ate Domz for the Earphones! yeah! and we continued our talks and songs here at Bhauz, me and my Queen.. All is well that ends well.. a Happy.. Gotta go, Im gonna be late again for the lec if I stay late.. Love lots, Jim.. P.S. Even Ex Lovers can become friends.. ^^,

    Entry #219 May 22, 2012 11:22 pm


    Dear SoulEater,

    Its been a day and lots have happened..

    Yesterday, after my review, the only significant events that happened was about the May 21 date and the come back of Butler and Queen..

    So Id like to skip the morning part of yesterday, its like any other day of course.. Me playing NX,lunch, review and all.. During the afternoon, my Queen, which hates me that time told me what she really felt for me.. Which I appreciated.. but I was having a hard time deciding, coz yet again, I cannot get something which I always wanted..

    so after around 5, even if the lecturer was not finished with his lecture, I left and skipped the remaining lessons coz I have to go to Lamia.. its 21 remember.. its an important day..

    so at Lamia at Embarcadero, I met with my Ex Donnalyn.. we have been celebrating our 21, which was our Monthsary date, came from September 21, which was our Anniversary…

    I ordered her our usual order, Mocha coffee but this time, no Kitkat black coz Gai was heavily flooded with people that time.. tsk..

    so me and Donnalyn started talking about our pasts, we asked each other how we were faring.. and she told me her problems.. yes she is my ex, but she is still important to me, and I am responsible.. So I shared her burden of sorrows while I was away.. and Im glad she told me everything.. I am pretty sure I alleviated most of her sadness the moment she shared the thoughts which she cant share just to anybody.. I also asked her about Steven, you know, the guy who wanted Lynlyn when we were still us, she said they are faring fine.. I also told her about my lovelife too.. about me and dream girl, about the Anigaiden and Chasing the Cosplay Goddess Event, and about meeting my queen.. we talked about lots of things..

    Then we proceeded to the spot at embarc, near the sea, where she said yes to me when I was courting her.. There, I only asked for one thing.. I didnt ask for a kiss.. I just asked for me to hug her from the back.. She didnt resist and let me hug her for more than 15 mins I guess.. then we bid farewell to the sea and sky.. It was a beautiful night..

    Now the next event was a more crucial matter.. its about getting back to my Queen whom Ive hurt.. While I was talking to Lynlyn,I realized that I was wrong on trying to test her if she would need me, if shed want me back..I shouldnt have done that.. so I was desperate.. I contacted her when I arrived at Fortmax after I have safely accompanied Lyn home..

    I tried contacting her, I looked into her FB using my ninja skills and stalker abilities.. and saw some bothersome posts of her there.. But I ignored and understood it..it was all out of hate for me the reason she said those..

    she replied, I loaded her, and loaded my broadband too.. I was desperate that all possible means of contacting her I have exhausted already..

    so after a few convincing, she agreed to skype with me one last shot.. I was prepared to do something, something which I dont normally do to common people.. and I do it on my emotional climaxes the reason I had to sue it one final blow..

    so when I got home, I immediately set up my Lappy and started calling her..

    and when she answered the Video call, I prepared myself and sought help from You Soul for her to forgive me..

    I kneeled and begged for her forgiveness..

    The last time I even kneeled was when I was begging Donnalyn to choose me instead of Steven.. Yes, that moment was so sad I become down when I remember it, but with that event I became stronger.. and I was so sincere on asking for my queen’s forgiveness the reason I did it again.. I kneeled, begged for her to forgive me..

    and maybe You really didnt leave me when I needed You Soul.. She forgave me.. and we resumed our usual routine until 12:31 am of today.. I thought I was a goner there, that it was already too late.. Im glad Donnalyn made me realize I was wrong and that I should ask for her forgiveness..

    so came today, woke up 6, went to RUN for some lecture, ended at 5, went to Shea’s house for her Dad’s Bday and ate lots of spagetti and Ice cream.. I also skyped with my Queen and tried using the iPad.. and ergo, all happy.. Thanks ate Domz for the Earphones! yeah!

    and we continued our talks and songs here at Bhauz, me and my Queen..

    All is well that ends well..

    a Happy..

    Gotta go, Im gonna be late again for the lec if I stay late..

    Love lots,

    Jim..

    P.S.

    Even Ex Lovers can become friends.. ^^,

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  7. Entry #218 May 20, 2012 11:00 pm

    Dear SoulEater,

    Today, a sad event happened.. I dont know whatshe really meant when she removed me as a friend.. But I think our friendship is over from there..

    Yesterday, nothing much, the day I got pissed becoz I expected too much as mentioned in my 217 entry.. But last night, I dont know what came to me,but I suddenly felt I needed to talk to my Queen..

    I loaded her, and I loaded my broadband becoz I knew kuya Ton was not there so I used it to access the net for my Session with my Queen.. We talked.. like usual..

    then we came up with the conversation with his loved guy.. I told her about the fanpage made for me by Jus and Kevs.. and she saw it too.. There, she said about her and BF getting caught.. I too was not approving it,but back in my mind, I dont know what to say..

    so while we talk about his guy, I feel sad and became so down.. then I realized, that I cannot mingle with her anymore.. she has to focus on the guy that she likes.. so I cant exist in her life anymore..

    I quickly drafted a plan on making her dump me..

    I called it Operation: The Phantom Butler, Denique Evanui..

    That latin phrase means “At last to Vanish”

    I plan on vanishing on her eyes.. I plan to remove myself from her life by making her remove me..

    so Today, all day, I didnt talk to her..

    all I did was play PS1 games while looking at her.. she PMed me at around 10.. But I ignored it, I was trying to resist.. But what I really feel was that I want to talk to her.. and maybe convince her that maybe she could try loving someone whod take good care of her..like me..

    But then again, I said to myself, She doesnt like you.. she likes someone else..

    so I ignored the PM and slept..

    Came afternoon, I went to church to see You.. then I had my penitence..

    went to Fortmax to go OL and look after her.. I was tracking her every move…

    Who am I fooling… I am supposed to be ignoring her, but all I did was check on her and look on her profile.. I was fooling myself after all..

    Came this time.. She PMed me for the second time.. I ignored it for a few minutes, but I cannot resist what I feel for her,so I replied.. but it didnt turn out what I was expecting..

    a few moments later she asked me:

    “Bakit ka ganyan sakin?”

    I replied to her on FB.. then she said:

    “Im out of your life..”

    Then I noticed I cant send the message anymore.. and there.. She unfriended me on FB..

    I texted her and thanked her for that 23 days of having her in my life.. I was happy on those days.. This will be hard for me.. But I have to move on.. I just pray that the guy would treat her right.. Its what she needs.. A love from his Love, not from someone who loves her..

    Im sorry Soul.. I think I became a douche becoz of love again..

    Love lots,

    Jim..

    P.S.

    Jinn will be out a few days from now to focus on the review.. Tomorrow, I have to prepare.. its 21.. I have a date with Miss Orbon, my Ex.. we always celebrate 21 at Embarc.. This shows that even EX lovers can become friends.. No need on being bitter..

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  8. Entry #217 May 19, 2012 5:49 pm Dear SoulEater, The picture above is the 1st boss of the new game released, Diablo III.. and Im gonna play it soon.. Anyway, I am really disappointed.. This past 2 days was really frustrating.. not only did I expect and got downed, it even affected my 3 exams.. Tsk.. Twice I expected, Twice I prepared, Twice I waited and Twice I got Disappointed.. and all I can say was “Too Bad..” Thats what I said at FB.. and I am really not looking well.. Really a mess.. Yesterday, I woke up 5:30 am sharp, bcoz I was preparing for a meet up with my queen.. I had my reserve get up used for special events just for yesterday’s supposed to be event.. My get up and preparations was all neat and cool, many loved it.. I went to Gai and took my 2 post exams.. Around lunch time, Sam, surprisingly went with us for lunch and we ate at Chowking.. I am happy that time, coz for the first time, I was able to have a seat beside her, and we ate side by side.. But the moment was very awkward becoz Shea began mentioning about my Queen.. which was a bit dangerous.. I hope she didnt notice.. All afternoon I waited for my meet up, then suddenly my Queen texted me, she said she cant come.. She said shed go out in the afternoon the next day which is today.. Which made me really sad.. I was really looking forward to it, only to get disappointed.. so after the review, I went home with sad face.. Went to Fortmax, and to my dismay, when I played LoL, I killed everyone.. All enemies Kill on sight.. I was so irritated I began crushing my enemies games.. Then I went home.. Only again to get hoping for nothing.. Kuya Ton was not there, meaning, no WiFi.. and it wuld mean no Skype.. If I had known, I could have loaded my broadband.. But then again I realized, I would only keep on building up frustrations on myself.. It was never anyone’s fault, and only I can blame myself.. Then I slept.. At around 12 am, an unusual thing happened, the rooftop or rather the ceiling near my room, water came flowing like a waterfall.. like WTF? where did it come from? So Eldon immediately called me about the situation.. It came from an overflowing tank upstairs.. so we immediately called Madam’s attention.. ANd we told em the situation.. It was not stressing actually, it was rather funny.. To have a waterfall near your room in the middle of the night… Haha.. Then I woke up at 6 am.. Knowing that she will be present today at Gai, I finally used my last weapon, my beloved get up and preparations.. I was really serious on doing all my plans with my queen for today.. and in my mind what was there was that I wanna see her and do my job.. I went to Gai and listened to the rationalization.. I am pretty sure my get up caught lots of attention, but still the one I intend to impress hasnt seen it yet.. and I was getting really nervous.. came afternoon, I was still waiting.. I came down at around 2 pm to check if she’s up.. But she was not there.. and I palely waited until 5 pm.. and my Queen texted me, she asked why she didnt see me.. I said I was at Gai the whole time.. she replied she was home already.. Which made me lose all hope.. At that point, I said to myself, that I again downed myself and got frustrated.. and all I can say was “Too Bad..” haizt.. All my plans ruined.. there I was, waiting for nothing.. I dont wanna think about it anymore.. Maybe it was really fate that me and her wont meet.. Its just sad.. Too sad.. Nwei, I have to go, Ill just relay this negative feelings into defeating enemies.. Love lots, Jim.. P.S. Jinn reminded me that 21 is nearing.. I have to prepare.. So I contacted Miss Orbon and reminded her of the incoming special day that we always celebrated.. even as friends..

    Entry #217 May 19, 2012 5:49 pm


    Dear SoulEater,

    The picture above is the 1st boss of the new game released, Diablo III.. and Im gonna play it soon..

    Anyway, I am really disappointed.. This past 2 days was really frustrating.. not only did I expect and got downed, it even affected my 3 exams.. Tsk..

    Twice I expected, Twice I prepared, Twice I waited and Twice I got Disappointed..

    and all I can say was “Too Bad..”


    Thats what I said at FB.. and I am really not looking well.. Really a mess..


    Yesterday, I woke up 5:30 am sharp, bcoz I was preparing for a meet up with my queen.. I had my reserve get up used for special events just for yesterday’s supposed to be event.. My get up and preparations was all neat and cool, many loved it.. I went to Gai and took my 2 post exams.. Around lunch time, Sam, surprisingly went with us for lunch and we ate at Chowking.. I am happy that time, coz for the first time, I was able to have a seat beside her, and we ate side by side.. But the moment was very awkward becoz Shea began mentioning about my Queen.. which was a bit dangerous.. I hope she didnt notice..


    All afternoon I waited for my meet up, then suddenly my Queen texted me, she said she cant come.. She said shed go out in the afternoon the next day which is today.. Which made me really sad.. I was really looking forward to it, only to get disappointed..


    so after the review, I went home with sad face.. Went to Fortmax, and to my dismay, when I played LoL, I killed everyone.. All enemies Kill on sight.. I was so irritated I began crushing my enemies games.. Then I went home.. Only again to get hoping for nothing.. Kuya Ton was not there, meaning, no WiFi.. and it wuld mean no Skype.. If I had known, I could have loaded my broadband.. But then again I realized, I would only keep on building up frustrations on myself.. It was never anyone’s fault, and only I can blame myself.. Then I slept..


    At around 12 am, an unusual thing happened, the rooftop or rather the ceiling near my room, water came flowing like a waterfall.. like WTF? where did it come from? So Eldon immediately called me about the situation.. It came from an overflowing tank upstairs.. so we immediately called Madam’s attention.. ANd we told em the situation.. It was not stressing actually, it was rather funny.. To have a waterfall near your room in the middle of the night… Haha..


    Then I woke up at 6 am.. Knowing that she will be present today at Gai, I finally used my last weapon, my beloved get up and preparations.. I was really serious on doing all my plans with my queen for today.. and in my mind what was there was that I wanna see her and do my job..


    I went to Gai and listened to the rationalization.. I am pretty sure my get up caught lots of attention, but still the one I intend to impress hasnt seen it yet.. and I was getting really nervous..


    came afternoon, I was still waiting.. I came down at around 2 pm to check if she’s up.. But she was not there.. and I palely waited until 5 pm.. and my Queen texted me, she asked why she didnt see me.. I said I was at Gai the whole time.. she replied she was home already.. Which made me lose all hope.. At that point, I said to myself, that I again downed myself and got frustrated..


    and all I can say was “Too Bad..”


    haizt.. All my plans ruined.. there I was, waiting for nothing.. I dont wanna think about it anymore.. Maybe it was really fate that me and her wont meet.. Its just sad.. Too sad..


    Nwei, I have to go, Ill just relay this negative feelings into defeating enemies..


    Love lots,

    Jim..


    P.S.

    Jinn reminded me that 21 is nearing.. I have to prepare.. So I contacted Miss Orbon and reminded her of the incoming special day that we always celebrated.. even as friends..


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  9. Entry #216 May 17, 2012 10:06 pm Dear SoulEater, Its a lil bit early in the morning for me, but its ok coz its our break for today.. Im a lucky guy still after all.. Anyway, yesterday was a bit downer.. I am not supposed to feel those but I did.. I wasnt even expecting that.. Nwei, my day started around 9 yesterday, my Queen has already texted me that they are on their way CWC.. after replying, I played Harvest Moon and then slept again.. I woke up around 2 pm.. Wew, no lunch.. Then I ate lunch, took a bath then went to Fortmax.. I was surprised that my Queen was already OL on that time.. then she PMed me.. We talked, then she mentioned me about her loved guy being there at CWC.. I suddenly felt this piercing thought in both my mind and heart.. Its been a while, but Im pretty sure what i felt was jealousy.. well, Jealousy, I believe, is an defense mechanism of a person towards a threat to a relationship.. and I think my imaginary relationship with my queen was being threatened by him.. specially now that hed be staying for good till somewhere october or november.. which made me feel down and sad the rest of the day.. it even went as far as dragging my performance down in League of Legends.. and my friends noticed that.. They were asking me what happened to the Devil Jim of the LoL.. I told them I am having a disturbed thought process and that I need an uplifter.. so there.. on my last game, I finally used Ahri, coz I felt that she was bringing me down.. so I did all possible winning tactics and made that game serious.. I was in SEED mode that time.. and we literally crushed our enemy.. my 1st win of yesterday out of 4 games.. 1 win to 3.. At the bhauz, I was expecting that our WiFi be up.. but the sad news is, Kuya Ton was having a drinking session with his friends and the WiFi cannot be opened without him opening the comp.. so there.. They finished around 1 am.. and I am pretty sure my queen was waiting for me.. but another dark thought clouded my mind.. My queen loves the guy.. and I have no right to do anything.. and I was thinking the whole night, that she wont be needing a butler anymore.. I have taught her a lot of things.. and I hope she learns from it.. but if I leave her, that would mean breaking my promise.. so as my head was being turned dark, I called Jinn.. He told me to soothe the mind of bad thoughts.. to meditate.. so what I did? I practiced card magic.. coz It entails a large amount of focus and meditation.. I waited for the net to come even at 1 am.. but still no good.. so I said my goodnight to my queen and slept.. During my sleep, I chanced upon a cute dream.. The dream was, Alodia Gosengfiao called me in the middle of the night.. I can vividly remember a few details, she said she got my no. thru Flored, and that she wanted to talk to someone.. She chose to talk to me and we talked about almost everything.. Love, Life, etc.. We were laughing and we were trying to find happiness on our talks until I woke up.. She said she hopes to talk to me again soon.. Looking forward to that.. ^^, Then I woke up.. When I woke up today, I feel a lil bit better.. and just now, we crushed a team called EC at League of Legends, mind you, I used Ahri again.. ehe.. So, I think Im fine now.. I dont care anymore if My Queen ends up with that guy, her decision is my pleasure, and I hope she takes responsibility on her actions and answers.. ^^, Im just her Butler, and on my oath I said I wont fall for her.. Love lots, Jim.. P.S. Jinn is back to his slumber so its all em again.. Yeah!

    Entry #216 May 17, 2012 10:06 pm



    Dear SoulEater,

    Its a lil bit early in the morning for me, but its ok coz its our break for today.. Im a lucky guy still after all..

    Anyway, yesterday was a bit downer.. I am not supposed to feel those but I did.. I wasnt even expecting that..

    Nwei, my day started around 9 yesterday, my Queen has already texted me that they are on their way CWC.. after replying, I played Harvest Moon and then slept again.. I woke up around 2 pm.. Wew, no lunch.. Then I ate lunch, took a bath then went to Fortmax..

    I was surprised that my Queen was already OL on that time.. then she PMed me.. We talked, then she mentioned me about her loved guy being there at CWC.. I suddenly felt this piercing thought in both my mind and heart.. Its been a while, but Im pretty sure what i felt was jealousy.. well, Jealousy, I believe, is an defense mechanism of a person towards a threat to a relationship.. and I think my imaginary relationship with my queen was being threatened by him.. specially now that hed be staying for good till somewhere october or november.. which made me feel down and sad the rest of the day.. it even went as far as dragging my performance down in League of Legends.. and my friends noticed that.. They were asking me what happened to the Devil Jim of the LoL.. I told them I am having a disturbed thought process and that I need an uplifter..

    so there.. on my last game, I finally used Ahri, coz I felt that she was bringing me down.. so I did all possible winning tactics and made that game serious.. I was in SEED mode that time.. and we literally crushed our enemy.. my 1st win of yesterday out of 4 games.. 1 win to 3..

    At the bhauz, I was expecting that our WiFi be up.. but the sad news is, Kuya Ton was having a drinking session with his friends and the WiFi cannot be opened without him opening the comp.. so there.. They finished around 1 am.. and I am pretty sure my queen was waiting for me.. but another dark thought clouded my mind.. My queen loves the guy.. and I have no right to do anything.. and I was thinking the whole night, that she wont be needing a butler anymore.. I have taught her a lot of things.. and I hope she learns from it.. but if I leave her, that would mean breaking my promise.. so as my head was being turned dark, I called Jinn.. He told me to soothe the mind of bad thoughts.. to meditate.. so what I did? I practiced card magic.. coz It entails a large amount of focus and meditation.. I waited for the net to come even at 1 am.. but still no good.. so I said my goodnight to my queen and slept..

    During my sleep, I chanced upon a cute dream.. The dream was, Alodia Gosengfiao called me in the middle of the night.. I can vividly remember a few details, she said she got my no. thru Flored, and that she wanted to talk to someone.. She chose to talk to me and we talked about almost everything.. Love, Life, etc.. We were laughing and we were trying to find happiness on our talks until I woke up.. She said she hopes to talk to me again soon.. Looking forward to that.. ^^, Then I woke up..

    When I woke up today, I feel a lil bit better.. and just now, we crushed a team called EC at League of Legends, mind you, I used Ahri again.. ehe.. So, I think Im fine now.. I dont care anymore if My Queen ends up with that guy, her decision is my pleasure, and I hope she takes responsibility on her actions and answers.. ^^, Im just her Butler, and on my oath I said I wont fall for her..

    Love lots,

    Jim..

    P.S.

    Jinn is back to his slumber so its all em again.. Yeah!


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  10. Entry #215 May 15 2012 6:43 pm

    Dear SoulEater,

    Past 3 days as far as I know.. The only thing which significantly happened on those days was what was happening every night.. Me having this moments with my Queen..

    The other day, May 13, Nothing much on that day.. Except for the negative stigma left behind from the unexpected event the night of May 12.. So all I did was play the whole day.. Slept at afternoon, then went to church to see You and ate Magnum and Cadbury like crazy on the streets.. I also lost 3 ranked games which really killed me whole.. At around 8 or 9 pm, I called my Queen to ask for her forgiveness of the event before that day.. I know I dont have faults and doesnt have too, but I felt like I wanted to apologize so I did.. Then we again resumed our talk thru calls and texts.. the Net was not up that time so all we did was talk and listen to each other.. Para na ding nagskype.. Then we slept at around 12 am..

    Came May 14, I woke up late so I went to Gai around 10 am and reviewed with Dr. Arni(dont know the spelling of his name..) but he has an impressive diction and accent aside from his brains on Medicine and Health care.. I look like him.. ahahah.. I saw my future again.. really am gonna be a doctor..

    Then played NX at lunch and breaktime..

    then went home early for some reasons..

    I rested and played Harvest moon until 8, then called my Queen and asked if she needed me..

    then at around 9 or so, we started talking and Video calling..

    “We started at 9:06 pm, we ended up at 12:43 am, and all we did, was stare at each other,trying to find the beauty behind each other’s eyes..”

    I documented what happened so I would remember all that transpired last night.. That was what really was happening.. we were only looking at each other, smiling, doing this tongue gestures almost all the time, and stared at each other as if we were mutually talking thru our eyes..

    Nwei, it was really one of the happiest moments last night.. after bidding my goodnight to my Queen, I finished watching captain America and slept at around 2 am..

    Then came today.. I thought nothing would today except for the review until my Queen told me that she would be coming to Gai along with her Cousin.. It made me panic at first but got my cool in a few minutes so all I did was just listened to Doc Arni then played NX during the break.. and I saw her there, like how she described herself shed look..

    I didnt talk to her to her today amongst the crowd, first coz she has someone with her, I dont wanna spoil their won moment.. 2nd, Kulot was in the vicinity.. Her tongue gesture was enough for me.. Im already happy with that.. So I played NX and did freestyle coz my Audiences came, with the KTV group among them.. many watched and I got their amazement.. ehehehe

    after playing drums, we went back.. then I bought ice cream and burger at Jolibee then finished the review 5:45 pm..

    then here at Fortmax..

    Im lucky that well be having 2 days off starting tomorrow.. So there, rest day for me.. I was really looking forward to my Date with my Queen.. but, shell be going to CWC tomorrow.. just sad.. I just dont know when we would still be able to see each other again.. I still have lots of debts to pay my Queen.. and I really wanna pay em.. gotta go Soul.. I dont want her to see this.. hihi..

    Love lots,

    Jim..

    P.S.

    If tomorrow nothing would happen, Ill call Jinn tomorrow to substitute me.. Ill rest for 2 days in my dream vessel.. Jinn will just call if there would be anything that would significantly happen..

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